Heaven and Honor

Am I the only one left shaking by the closeness of Heaven? Last week my cousin Casey died and I feel like God opened the Heavens and blinded me with a small flash of eternity.
I felt horror that someone so young could die and this strange sense of relief at the same time. He faced death and now he's ok. More then ok.
I felt sadness. Sad because there's a wall that I can't get through now when I want to the most.
I felt awe. Awe, because God loved Casey so much and was so proud of the life he lead that He let the world hear and see.
I cried. For me, for his family, for his friends. There's honor and respect and admiration in tears you know. So I cried for Casey and I cried for a God who loves each of us so much and feels our pain.
I smile, because tonight Heaven seems very near.